Change of Mind

Change of mind=Change of attitude/situation..

These are words that were just spoken to me by someone that I think is a very wise person. There are just times that simple little words, probably even ones that you have heard so many times can really change the way that you think about your situations. Sometime, all you have to do is just change you mind. Change the way that you think. It doesn't always have to be about changing your whole life, or moving, or getting out of your comfort zone even. It could simply be just changing the way you think. You can just change what you want.

My life has change drastically in the last year. Sometimes I don't even know how to put it all together. I mean, I was always the girl that loved life. I was the one that was surrounded by friends, always in the middle of the drama but had the boyfriend to fall back on so it didn't matter. I was in school, only doing it because thats why my parents wanted, but they were happy so life was good. I thought I had it all together. The main problem was though, that the relationships that I was surrounding myself with were artificial ones and I definately was the farthest away from being in the center of Gods will that I could possibly be. I was living for the moment, I just wanted to guy, and the friends and the beer or whatever drink someone was willing to buy for me and give me some attention. And all within a month, I canged everything. I decided that college wasn't the thing for me...so I moved home. All within that same time, my relationship ended, and I moved away from my friends (the ones that I had been closest to for the last 4 years anyway) and I was not in school...so I wasn't exactly on the top of my parents happy list. I went from having two jobs to none at all. And with that happening, the money that I had never ever hurt for was definatly dwindling. (Right now I am living off of the gift cards that my mom gave me for Christmas. Hmmm)

So now that I am feeling like I am at the very bottom of where I could go. I just decided to CHANGE MY MIND. I am not in a bad place right now, I am simply in a crossroads.

I decided that I was going to apply for cosmetology school. Which I just got into. Because that is the only that I have always had my heart set on doing. And I just got a call for a job interview at a salon around the Mall of Georgia. Things are starting to look up. I have definately made some new friends.::that I would like to say are better (fit) for me.:: And I have started reading trhough the new testimate in the Bible...b/c that is ultimately the only place that you are going to find what Gods will even is. You can't begin the be in the center if you don't even know what you are looking for.

So CHANGE-

Changing my friends, my school, my take on relationships...even my HAIR. (yup, I'm a brunette)

Where is it gonna go?! ((Fear is just a word))