Cooking For A Husband Who Eats Like A Child

     The struggle has been real lately. I am on diet overload and my husband eats like a 6 year old. He doesn't like veggies, he doesn't like anything "mushy", he won't eat whole wheat, or thin crust pizza, or low carb. This is leading to cooking 2 meals. I try my whole day to eat greek yogurt, protein shakes, egg whites, fruit, and protein. Dinner is a different story. Tonight, we are having crockpot chicken and dumplings. (which i try to make as healthy as possible) with gluten free dough and low sodium cream of chicken. Still this is not what I need to be eating.

   I sometimes feel like my workouts and days of eating less than flavorful things are worthless when I come home to cook and eat like that. However, if I had more willpower, this would probably not be an issue. I cannot turn down chicken and dumplings...I am a southern woman.

   Do men not understand how much goes into planning a weeks worth of meals and grocery shopping? Sometimes it is so frustrating to cook something that you think everyone will love, only to hear that it is so mushy or doesn't taste like your mom's. Last week I made stuffed shells. Who doesn't like those? They were filled with ricotta cheese, sausage, and spinach. Only a person with a 6 year old palate would disapprove. Well...

So what is the way to fix this issue? I have tried hiding ingredients, not telling him what is in it, and simply cooking him something to eat and myself something different. None have worked so far.

I will keep you posted.

I have been beginning to think that I am in the midst of a midlife crisis. To most people this may seem strange, however, I am almost sure. Not that I have had one before to know excactly what one would feel like, but the emotional breakdowns are ridiculous.

I just 2.5 short weeks, I will be 25. My life is probably about as far as one could possibly get from where I thought that my life would be at this point in time. in my own mind, I would be married by 21 maybe have a kid or two by now with a loving husband, a career, and a cute little house that was just perfect for my family. Where I find myself, however, is completely single, working 2 jobs, and living in my parents basement. When is there going to be a break for someone like me?

If anyone has any thoughts or help. please please please let me know before I go out and buy a crazy new car or something that I will never be able to afford :) thanks

mercy.

I know what is right and wrong. I have been raised in a family of Christians and a father that has instilled the value of integrity and character and how much they mean to a person. Yet I continue to find myself in situations that leave me thinking, "how did I get here," and "why do I think this is fun?" I have found myself lately so un-worthy of God's mercy that is continuously given to me.

So, how, knowing this, can I continuously put myself in situations that warrents needing his grace every morning. But one thing that I cannot imagine is living a life and not knowing what His grace feels like. I wake up each morning with certain regrets, but know that I can take those to the Father in prayer and that he will give me to strength to make it through the day knowing that the sins that I commit are already covered under the fact that he paid for all of them on the cross for me. personally.

money. money. money. money. money

have you ever seriously thought about the fact that you cant really servive without money. i am sitting here at work right now and i have had one haircut and am now just sitting and waiting for one more haircut that is coming at the end of my day. it is so frustrating to me to think that i went to school, found a job, and work 6 days a week... my last paycheck was 222.43. can someone please explain that to me? i am getting a little better, i usually have around 2 clients a day, but still... i feel like most people my age are making money and moving out and getting married... but i feel that i am still behind. i know that i have heard it takes around 2 years to build up a clientel so maybe i am being super impatient but its making me nervous. i didnt account for this on my 2 year plan. but at least im not the only one that is sitting back here and the others definitely have more experience then me so idk if that should make me feel better, like its not just me or worse like idk if it will get better. so i guess we will keep posted.

i know that god says that you should keep your identity in him and not worry about other peoples lives, but i cant help but be frustrated that others lives are moving so much faster then mine...

choices

oooemmgeee

Well oporation get my butt in shape is not working out today as well as I would have hoped. Why can I never get things right when it comes to losing weight. maybe its because i will work ouit for a week and then feel an inch smaller and be done. so, this is my last shred of laziness- goal for the summer, lose 20 lbs.

ready...

go

For the love of love

My life has been consumed with weddings lately. It seems that every where I turn someone else is engaged, their wedding is this week or they are on their honeymoon. I'm super excited for all of these people, most of them are my closest friends...but I can't help but be disappointed in myself at the same time. All of this is just everything that I had planned for my own life by this time. Its really hard for me to realize that I'm almost twenety five and have 2 year plan or really any plan at all when it comes to knowing when or if I will ever get married. I don't know if its jealousy or stress or just wishing that I had someone to go to sleep with every night and wake up to every morning and spend all of my time with and thinking about.
Times like this are when I'm glad that I have God and a hope. I know that His plan is better then mine. And maybe I am doing something wrong as to where God doesn't want to bless me with the desires of my heart.
So that leaves me now to try and figure out what to do now. Should I keep my 2 year plan or give it up and just roll with whatever. I hate being out of control but maybe that is what I'm supposed to be learning right now...
we will see
-C

{CHanGE}

Something amazing happened in my life this weekend. In the midst of the worst possible day ever, I realized exactly the change that needs to take place in my life.
I don't feel like I have ever honestly heard the voice of God so clearly as I did yesterday. When I totally thought that I was broked beyond the point of return and there was no way that this could get better, regretting going home to face real people, I heard Him.
I have longed for so long to hear God speak. I listen to people all the time tell me that they heard God say this and God spoke to them in this way. I was beginning to doubt my salvation because I could never remember a time that I actually heard God speak to me. But yesterday, I did. "Everything is going to be ok, but these things need to change."
It's incredible to me to know that I serve a God that can take something that you never think you will be able to get out of and make it the most amazing experience of your life. And now that I'm home, the things that he said are coming true. He is also a helpful God, He knows exactly the things that are hard for me to do on my own and he is taking the steps to remove those things from my life.
I have heard storys like this all of my life but I have never experience it for myself until yesterday and today. I truely serve the most phenominal God ever!! I could not be more excited about the friendships and the changes that are coming out of this situation.

Please pray for me as I continue to pursue these changes and steps in my life!!

Tests of true faith

When do you think that God has the best outcome in His plan for you? It seems so easy to see God's grace and the good in all of the things around you when things are going the way that you want them to. But maybe, have you ever thought that they could be heading the way that you wanted...but just not taking the same path that you would have taken?! And most of the time, that is our fault.

I have learned more about this fact in the last year then I have in the last 23 of my life. I knew what my outcome was going to be. And I knew exactly how I was going to get there...on my own terms. It never crossed my mind that just becuase you feel that you know God's outcome plan for your life doesn't mean you are on the same page about how to get there.

I thought I had things figured out with the fact that I was going to college in a small little town and getting a business degree and then going to hair school and opening a salon and living the sweet little life that I had planned out for myself. The only thing that I actually got right about that was the fact that God wanted me to show His love to others by bringing out the beauty that He gave them and teaching them how to live with that everyday. While in college, i could never get on the right track! I changed my major so many times continually telling myself that I couldn't figure out God's plan for my life and questioning whether there really was one, when really the only problem was that I couldn't stay away from the bar long enough to even remember what I was praying to have answered, much less be able to hear God's voice in answeing it. I was constantly jumping from group to group, from friend to friend, and from boy to boy just to find answers and a purpose. The only voice of God that I could hear between hangovers was the best friend that he put in my life to help keep this whole mess straight. He knew I needed this from the beginning when he put her in my life first semester or freshman year...it was like he knew before it even started that my life was about to get a little more than chaotic... This was NOT God's road plan to my outcome. In my shallow thinking through this whole thing, I was just a young college kid having fun and nothing was hurting anyone...But I can't even imagine how much damage I caused to people around me not to mention to myself.

My point in writing this is to get it in words. Not only for myself, but maybe to help someone else. Sometimes you can get off the path. And sometimes its really easy to feel that you are just making your own way or that what you do while you are young doesn't matter as long as it works out for you in the end. This is not true. The tests of true faith happen when you are young. Its easier to have blind faith when you are a child and you don't have problems of your own to decifer through. And when you are older and it is more acceptable to live by your beliefs. But for those of us who are young, struggling to find our way in this world and make new beginnings for ourselves; Don't stray from the path that you started when you were that young child with blind faith. God has given you a path and an outcome and He has made the way to get there one that will do nothing but good for you and bring you to your dreams, the trick is to continually follow him. Make the decisions to put your faith in Him and only Him when you are young. This way, you won't make the same mistakes that I did and try to make your own way so much so that you can't even hear His voice for your paths anymore.

It is true that He will never leave you and that when you make the decisions to make your way back He will be there for you with open arms. But my advice, make that decision sooner rather then later!

These are the tests of true faith to me. When you are young and things are harder to figure out...what do you do? Are these the times when you feel He has your best outcomes in His plans...or are these the times that you give up and try to figure them out for yourself?!

::jealousy::

Is jealousy normal? This is the question that has been on my mind lately.
Matt is constantly telling me that I should be more content with the things that I have and the way that my life is going. I always want the nicest things and the best things and with my budget...or lack of at the moment, it is just not possible. Its really not that I dont' appreciate what I have though. Its that I one day dream of having more. I know that I can't have certain things right now. I am 24 years old and with all of the set backs that have come across...I am just now stating out in my career path.

But going to all of my friends baby and wedding showers. planning my best friends wedding. looking at pictures of people's new babies and decorating friends houses...not to mention in the hair business hearing all of the stories of wedding plans and babies on the way. I'm jealous.

Happy Wednesday

ok! This is day 3 of the fast and I'm starving...maybe if I could get my mind off of food and actually spend some time with God things would make sense. Being snowed in for 3 days when all I want to do is eat really isn't helping either! I am so ready for God to do something big and amazing in my life. I know that people are saying this all the time...but I really feel like 2011 is going to be the most incredible year of my life. Everything seems to be going great so far and I have never had things so together in my life. I have an overwhelming desire to hear HIS voice and do something amazing to serve my Lord. I feel a major call to do something BIG but right now I am just believing God for some direciton.

WITH THIS FAST I am trusting God to completely align my path with his. I am praying for my finances with my job, that he will give me a HUGE opportunity to serve him, and that the main desire of my heart with come true this year.

Its time for something big to happen in my life. I will be 25 this year and I'm ready to do things on my own. Things that ONLY GOD can open up.

I can't wait <3

::Life in Lessons:: 2010

It's hard to say where I should even begin when it comes to the lessons that I have learned in 2010 and how much my life has changed. I'm pretty certain in my ability to say that this is the year that God showed me what it really means to live a life consumed with Him and his will. My life will never be the same!!!

Starting last January, I learned what it really means to be alone and fully rely on God for my purpose. Before this year, i thought that I could put my God on the back burner. I could party now and do whatever made me happy in the moment and God would still be there when I felt like it was time for me to re-introdce the father into my life. I thought it was totally fine if i did what I wanted and lied to my parents and my friends. It was no big deal as long as I had a boy and was happy with myself then everything was totally fine and God would be there when I was ready. How could I have ever expected the Lord to take over my life the way he has.

Last Christmas I lost something that I thought was the most important thing in my life. It was soimething that I would was more perfect than anything I could have imagined but while I was living my life to make myself happy, suddenly, it was gone. It was at that point that everything changed and embarked on my most life changing year!!

In Febuary, I celebrated my very first Valentine's day as a single girl. It's kinda sad to say that I was 23 years old before I realized what it really meant to be romanced by my savior. Now I didn't exactly spend it totally single....I did spend it with the most amazing freinds ever! But there wasnt just me and a guy. For once. I finally realized that it was a little easier to actually wholly spend time with my God when i wasn't consumed with a guy to make all of my needs met and entertain me at the same time.

In march..things honestly starting to take a turn for the old. I began to lost focus, and miss my old friend and my old life. I do, however think this is a little normal. Most of the time, when you being to gove up everything that you thought was normal and changed your whole view of normality. I still didn't have a job, or a boyfriend and my friends were beginning to go out all of the time...so it was compleltly normal right? wrong. I needed prayer. Then came April.

I finally got a new job!!!! And I started school. Things were starting to look up and I began to realize that maybe my plan and God's plan really were in sync. I then realized that more struggles were only to come. When you are doing Gods will and striving for his perfect plan in your life, the devil desires to take full control. This became the main struggle for me with the people that I was now working with and going to school with. I don't want to list out the things that were important to these people or the things that they were doing that was so tempting to the person that I used to be. So these next few months did prove to be that much of a struggle.

Through May, June and July...there was just school, work, and haning out with my best friends. We went to the beach and did random things till all hours of the night...ya know, just being 20 somethings. haha.

And in June, in the midst of all of this...God brought the most amazing man into my life. He isn't perfect, no one is. But he is everything that I could have ever prayed for. He is a strong man of God that I never would have been able to put together on my own. I honestly feel like he is who God made for me.

August came, and everyone went back to school, leaving Matty and I to grow together and spend tons of our time growing and sharing with each other in the Lord. We made new friends and went on TONS of sweet dates and have had the time of our lives. At the end of August we celebrated Matts 25th birthday...then came September :)

With September came My birthday and the beginning of mine and Matthew's journey of being parents...to the most AMAZING little chahuahua EVER!! (he was my birthday present and you can follow his ridiculous adventrues in "Pablo's Adventures')

I have never had a dog of my own before so this has been a wonderful/stressful/bank-breaking time for me, but I have loved every second of it!

Next came October...which is my favorite season of all. FALL!! I love everything football and pumpkins and crisp air and leaves and omg. Everything about FALL :) Matt and I carved pumpkins and went to GA games and continued to grow in our amazing relationship!!

FINALLY...the HOLIDAYS :)

Friends came home for Thanksgiving and Christmas, family came into town and Matty and I celebrated our first Holidays and our 6 Month anniversary.

I can definately say that this year has been the most learned year of my life. I will forever be changed and see the world through different eyes since this year.

God is amazing. Jesus Saves

isn't it funny

well, i guess ive been doing so bad at this lately that i'm trying to make up for it now, or maybe i'm just that bored.

it's funny to me to this about when people actually feel like their life is beginning. is it when you graduate high school, get a real job, get married, whats the answer. i'm not writing this as though i have one...i'm actually trying to figure out what it is. why is it that we are always looking for something new to happen or to get to the next thing before we are satisfied or feel like we are grown up? what about the actual process of growing.

the whole time that i was at n.ga, my mom kept saying that she couldn't wait for me to grow up...but what does that mean exactly...b/c i feel like i learned more about myself and life during that time then any other part. and guess what...now i'm done with college and i still don't feel like i am "grown" i mean i am just now getting started in a job and still not making any money or being able to afford living on my own...so what does that make me? still a kid?

so what makes you grown? is it age or life experience?

Adventures of my prince charming.

So, for my birthday this year, my sweet angel boyfriend got me a puppy. His name is Pablo, and I am totally and completely obssessed with him!! Oh my gosh.

I always wanted a dog. You know, one that you can hold and carry around in your purse and snuggle on the couch with and things of that nature...little did I know what I was really in store for. This little man is the love of my life...but a holy terror!! wow

Problem number one has been potty training. I think its nothing short of impossible. At first we were trying to pad trian him but after he was totally not getting it and peeing EVERYWHERE!! We decided that it would probably be better to let him pee outside. That was until we are the ones having to take him outside and its SNOWING, haha I would rather him pee in the house. And even when he does go outside...in like two seconds he still will poop inside, so if any one has any insite to this problem, it would be sooo greatly appreciated!

But other then this, he is a precious little angel and I don't remember where my life was without him.

Yesterday he got kicked out of wal-mart. more to come on that later :)

XOXO

Changing lives.

Life changes so quickly. There are so many things that I had planned on when I started this blog this time last year. Friends change, families change, even enemies change.

I am almost done with cosmetology school now, only one more 10 week session and I will be out and taking the test to have my liscense. I actually never thought I would be done with school, this is a 7 year stretch. I have the best job in the world at an amazing salon in Buford and I am slowly but surely gaining a clientel...very slowly. I know God with be faithful though and this is where I feel that I am supposed to be. I have so many amazing things in my life to be thankful for. I have the most amazing man in my life. I have never seen someone that loves Jesus more in my life. I can tell the devil is strongly working in my life sometimes when it comes to our relationship... Sometimes it drives me crazy with how much he wants to talk about God and things like that. Its what I have always wanted... and nowwww I just know the devil is doing everything in his power to take control of this situation.

However, in the friends department, I definately seem to be lacking. Maybe that is how God wants it. I am trying to steer clear of the alcohol and the weed and things of that nature. I am really doing well when its just matt and i, but the friends that I have seem to only want to do that. I don't want to act like I am better then them, or that I am condiming them but I just know that if I am around things like that then I"m not going to be able to say no like that. It won't be easy so I just don't want to put myself in that situation and they just don't understand. I would rather just hang out with them and do things like just the girls or even just watch a movie or something but I don't wnat to do anything with alcohol or anything like that. I know I'm not perfect but It just makes it harder when everyone else is doing things that I am trying not to do.

Life is just full of changes and sometimes you realize what you are all about as a person when things are the worst that they could possibly get. I want 2011 to be another year of change for me. I want to God to reveal things to me that I never would have imagined.

This could be amazing <3>

Next uppppp....The stories of the babyyyy

Real Life Lived

How can you really have a real life if you are confused about the will of God within you. The only time that you will really be able to live a real life is when you know that you are following the plan that God has for you. He has already planned out your life, that is the only way that you are going to be satisfied and genuinely happy...when you are living the one that has already been planned.

Lately I have been struggling with knowing that I am at the center of Gods will. I sometimes feel that I can't hear him, and have often been scared that He has just given up on me all together. But in my readings today, he has reassured me that He is always there for the people that honestly seek him. (Deut. 4:29 From there you will search again for the Lord your God. And if you search of him with all your heart and soul, you will find him.) But the main question that I have been plagued with lately is...Am I listening for what I want to hear, or am I really listening for his will? Am I honestly seeking him?

Of course, as humans, we want to know that the things that we want or are seeking are good and ok. I want to know that what I am going to school for is part of his plan for me, and that the man that I'm dating is who he has for me...things of that nature. But what if he says no. Are we really willing to give up our job, or security, our mate and say ok God-take me, start over in my and make me a new creation in you. I feel like we don't really grasp the concept of that change that would take place. We would have to be like the deciples. What if God came to you and said do this- leave where you are, don't take the time to say goodbye to anyone, don't go pack, don't fill up your car with gas, in fact don't even take your car... just follow my instructions and GO. Leave everything you know behind and FOLLOW ME. Would we really be willing to do that.

The honest truth about it is most of us-including myself-would probably argue about it. Try to negotiate our own ways into the situation. And the beauty of God is that He would let that happen...But then you would not be living the most fufilling life that is possible for you. You would be changing it into your way with your own spices added in. The trick is saying-OK God- I know that your way is best. I relenquish ALL control of my situation and my life and I give up anything that I want for my life to follow your will. To be able to live my BEST life.

Personally, I want to seek God new everyday. I want to know what he wants for me and my future, but I also want to be able to follow it when I see it. We all know that Gods way is best, but its not always the easiest. My prayer today is for myself as well as you. Start over- begin today to die to yourself and your own selfish desires and want Gods over your own.

Lord- my prayer today is to hear

your will for me. I give up my

own selfish hopes and desires

to surrender to your perfect

plan for my life!

Galatians 2:20 "I have been crucified with Christ: the life I now live is not my life, but the life which Christ lives in me; and my present bodily life is lived by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave himself up for me."

Deserving

What do we as people think that we actually deserve? Out of life, love, circumstances...GOD? Why in that world do we think that we deserve anything? Compared to God and many other things for that matter, we as people are nothing. It doesn't really matter how much or how little we have to offer, none of it even matters in comparison. I find my self wanting things and asking God for things, I get frustrated like a little kid when I don't get an answer-and especially when his answer is no. But why do I even think I deserve an answer at all.

I know so many times in my life that I have just basically slapped God in the face. My body is supposed to be a temple that he lives in...and what I have given him is a run down shack. actually probably a few pieces of cardboard that I have put together so he can cover up his head. I can't even give him a descent place to dwell and I expect him to help me with things and provide for my life. WHAT?!!

I even need help loving him more. I want to start a fire. I want to be passionate about the time that I spend with him every day-like not be able wait to wake up so I can talk to him. I find myself always wanting a man and to be in love and loved unconditionally...I have that with God! I just chose not to think that it is enough. We could have such a love affair with Him if we just chose to. He is ALWAYS there, so we would never have to be lonely, He would never ignore our phone call, He could provide anything that we need, hold us when we go to sleep, be there to talk to about absolutely anything. We just have to let that be enough.

This is what I need to learn. He is all that I need. Until this is the way that I am living, I do not even derserve for him to know my name. He did so much for me before I even claimed him as my father and now that I do, I still act like he is not enough.

My prayer today Lord is to change me (once again I am asking for something) Change my heart God and even the way that I think. I shouldn't drink or put things in my body that are harmful and the only reason that I need is that its yours. Really it doesn't even belong to me! I wouldn't want people putting poison into the house that I live in. I would move out! Reveal something to be to tell me that you are still there. That you haven't given up on me yet, then set a fire in my heart and consume my soul.

Something blue:: Something new

Can you just become something new?

I want to change everything about what is going on with my life. I want to change everything from my wardrobe to my God time. I need to spend way more time with my God, maybe that is why I am having feelings like this. Why can I not just realize that he wants to spend every second of everyday with me and wants me to be so obsessed with him that its ridiculous. I know that I disappoint him everyday. I wine, I complain, I say things I shouldn't, I think mean thoughts, smoke, drink, don't apreciate...so many things that just need to change. I need to change my habits. I need to start taking my vitamins and getting up at a descent hour. Start working out consistantly and eating better and at better times.

I want to start a prayer journal and see if things really begin to look up in my life and how long it takes. I mean, don't get me wrong...my life is not that bad. It just could be better and that is alll on me. The only reason its not at it's best is becuase of the choices that I make. I would be skinnier and happier if I didn't drink and made time to workout and took my vitamins like I was supposed to. And I would spend more time with my God if I woke up earlier and got things done. I also have the best friends in the world that know that the decisions in my life right now aren't the best ones that I could be making. Doing things for guys just to get their attention and wanting to hang out and feel needed at any means nessesary. Thats ridiculous.

I am however proud of what I am doing with my life and it can only get better from here. I made pretty good grades in school this term. They could have been better, but they are the best that they have been in a while. And I love my job and have been doing really well there. I am growing and taking on responsibilities...hopefully that will mean more money on my next paychecks- bringing me to the next issue...

Saving money. I wet through all of my savings within the last few months of not making the best paycchecks. I was still living like I was making a ton of money and I definately wasn't. Which also left no room for my tithe. Another thing that I was taking away from God.

Soooo these are the things that need to be changed. Fixed. and Removed.

Good thing I have amazing faith in my God and his love :)

What is Grace?

What is GRACE really? You hear through God's word that you have been saved by grace, not of anything that you can do yourself. But what does this mean. Is it simply God's love? And how many forms of grace are there.



When I think of the word grace, the verse Ephesians 2:8 comes to mind. It was a very significant tatoo on someones arm and is a passage that has stuck with me over the last year. You can only come to the Father through his GRACE. But how many forms does that take? And how does God show His unwavering grace to us?



The definition that I have found of "GRACE" is 1. Seemingly effortless beauty or charm of movement, form, or proportion. 2. A sense of fitness or 3. A temporary immunity or exemption.



So there are many ways that grace can be defined and seen in the world and in people. I feel like I am experiencing so much grace in my life right now through all of these way. There seems to be a beauty that cannot be explained in the people in my life and the shapes that situations are taking. Things are falling into place in a beautiful and effortless way. Thing are walking in, and out of my life and it is all happening as if I am in a dream. Sometimes I feel that I have no control over the way things are going, but then I look around and I don't really want to. I love that I feel that there is a higher power putting the puzzel of my life together just the way that he has it planned. I have learned from my mistakes and the times when I took the decision into my own hand, that it has turned out horribly and in no way that outcome that I had in my own mind. But when I know that the things at hand are out of my control and all I can do is sit back and watch my life unfold, there is an overwhelming sense of peace. This has been something extremly hard for me to learn, not only with life experiences but with guys, family, and probably every other aspect as well. But God has never ceased to show me the right way. And that his amazing grace is the only way that things will pull themselves together.



I also feel the grace through my friends and relationships that I have made. Being single is something that I have never really experienced until this last year. I was (yes that girl) that always had the boyfriend or the relationship and was always looking for the way to feel like I "belonged" and that usually had to mean to someone. God has shown me many things over this last year of being completely on my own though. 1. Friends are his gift to us. They show us and teach us things and give us advice that no other person in our life can do. You can have experiences with them that far outweigh anything that you could do with just one significant other. You can get a look into an intamate side of other peoples lives. 2. Everything (I mean ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING) happens for a reason. There is nothing in your life that doesn't teach you something, whether it be good or bad, you will learn from it. You learn who your friends are, you learn how to let go, you learn who will be there for you and how to be there for others, you learn how to be alone and be ok with who you are, and you learn how to move on. Sometimes you can feel like everything is going your way and nothing could be wrong with this...then the rug is pulled out from under you, maybe this is God saying you are ready for the hardwood floor :) You never know, things might come back around and be better then you could have ever dreamed about.



The last and most important from these definitions that I have found are the temporary immunity or exemption that God shows us. What in the world would we do if God judged us for every little thing that we did wrong. Our lives would be a constant termoil. He shows us this through our friends too, and our parents. There are times I know that I have hurt someones feelings or done something for myself not thinking of how it was going to make others feel. This are times when I have experiencd grace and forgivness. Just living life everyday for examply. The bible says that the penalty for our sins should be death. I would have been dead and age 1 when I told my mom that she couldn't tell me what to do..(not much has changed) But God took these penalties away from me and gave me life, to show his grace to me.



Through His GRACE, he gave us life, a life all our own. There is nothing the same about any of us and we are all here to learn from each other and help each other, to love to laugh, to teach, to preach, to open doors for ourselves and others and sometimes close them so that other ones can be opened for us. We should live each day thinking about the GRACE that we have been given and that we can give to others.



Forgive people. Love people. Change people



XO-C

lonnnggg time

Whoa, so much has happend since the last time I wrote. You think that you have everything figured out then it all falls apart again and you're right back to where we started.

Once again, it has to do mostly with a guy. I met someone new. And of course he seemed like the perfect little prince charming. But of course, all good things will definately come to an end. He seemed so amazing. And everything was wonderful, soooo we hung out, alot and then he asked if I wanted to be his girlfriend. Then he put it on facebook, it takes me four days to accept the facebook request. So that lasts about a week, then i asked him how things were because he seemed so weird, and he was like, no acutally I don't think that I want this. Soooo that didn't last long. And once again, I'm stuck wondering what in the world did I do. Then of course facebook is the devil. I get on there like every 5 seconds to see what he is doing and all those other stupid girls that he is talking to. Totally not healthy but what can you do.

So back to square one and where to go from here. i have a great job, and I'm back in school for hair. Which I absolutely LOVE! my job right now i'm only getting to stay at the front desk, but its still the atmosphere and thats pretty great. And I have the most amazing friends in the world. Heather is always there for me, and we are about to go to the beach for a few days, just the girlfriends. So that will be so fun. But I am still just wondering what in the world I am going to do. What is it that I keep doing wrong. I just dont get it. I didn't call him all the time, I didn't try and make him do all kinds of crazy things or try and make him hang out with me all the time, and still...I wasn't what he wanted.

When am I gonna get to be what someone wants?

Night Of Worship

Tonight was the Night of Worship at Blackshear Place and it was probably one of the most amazing thing that I have ever gotten to be a part of. Being as how I am musically inclined anyway, that is definately my favorite way to interact with my Lord! So tonight was soo moving. It definately brought me to tears mulitple times. There was a few songs that they like to add slides to up on the screans and most of them were of God and his cross and you could just see the pain and sorrow in his face. It is so un-imaginable to me that someone could do that for people. Like people he didn't even know. He died to save us. I know that it is something that most people, christian and non alike, have hear millions of times. But to really think about eactly what happend on that day. He knew that we would hurt him and betray him and ignor him and do our own thing most of the time, that we would lie and cheat and do irresponsible things and yet he still said, I love you enough to die for you. I could go on about this for days. God is so beyond amazing.