isn't it funny

well, i guess ive been doing so bad at this lately that i'm trying to make up for it now, or maybe i'm just that bored.

it's funny to me to this about when people actually feel like their life is beginning. is it when you graduate high school, get a real job, get married, whats the answer. i'm not writing this as though i have one...i'm actually trying to figure out what it is. why is it that we are always looking for something new to happen or to get to the next thing before we are satisfied or feel like we are grown up? what about the actual process of growing.

the whole time that i was at n.ga, my mom kept saying that she couldn't wait for me to grow up...but what does that mean exactly...b/c i feel like i learned more about myself and life during that time then any other part. and guess what...now i'm done with college and i still don't feel like i am "grown" i mean i am just now getting started in a job and still not making any money or being able to afford living on my own...so what does that make me? still a kid?

so what makes you grown? is it age or life experience?

Adventures of my prince charming.

So, for my birthday this year, my sweet angel boyfriend got me a puppy. His name is Pablo, and I am totally and completely obssessed with him!! Oh my gosh.

I always wanted a dog. You know, one that you can hold and carry around in your purse and snuggle on the couch with and things of that nature...little did I know what I was really in store for. This little man is the love of my life...but a holy terror!! wow

Problem number one has been potty training. I think its nothing short of impossible. At first we were trying to pad trian him but after he was totally not getting it and peeing EVERYWHERE!! We decided that it would probably be better to let him pee outside. That was until we are the ones having to take him outside and its SNOWING, haha I would rather him pee in the house. And even when he does go outside...in like two seconds he still will poop inside, so if any one has any insite to this problem, it would be sooo greatly appreciated!

But other then this, he is a precious little angel and I don't remember where my life was without him.

Yesterday he got kicked out of wal-mart. more to come on that later :)

XOXO

Changing lives.

Life changes so quickly. There are so many things that I had planned on when I started this blog this time last year. Friends change, families change, even enemies change.

I am almost done with cosmetology school now, only one more 10 week session and I will be out and taking the test to have my liscense. I actually never thought I would be done with school, this is a 7 year stretch. I have the best job in the world at an amazing salon in Buford and I am slowly but surely gaining a clientel...very slowly. I know God with be faithful though and this is where I feel that I am supposed to be. I have so many amazing things in my life to be thankful for. I have the most amazing man in my life. I have never seen someone that loves Jesus more in my life. I can tell the devil is strongly working in my life sometimes when it comes to our relationship... Sometimes it drives me crazy with how much he wants to talk about God and things like that. Its what I have always wanted... and nowwww I just know the devil is doing everything in his power to take control of this situation.

However, in the friends department, I definately seem to be lacking. Maybe that is how God wants it. I am trying to steer clear of the alcohol and the weed and things of that nature. I am really doing well when its just matt and i, but the friends that I have seem to only want to do that. I don't want to act like I am better then them, or that I am condiming them but I just know that if I am around things like that then I"m not going to be able to say no like that. It won't be easy so I just don't want to put myself in that situation and they just don't understand. I would rather just hang out with them and do things like just the girls or even just watch a movie or something but I don't wnat to do anything with alcohol or anything like that. I know I'm not perfect but It just makes it harder when everyone else is doing things that I am trying not to do.

Life is just full of changes and sometimes you realize what you are all about as a person when things are the worst that they could possibly get. I want 2011 to be another year of change for me. I want to God to reveal things to me that I never would have imagined.

This could be amazing <3>

Next uppppp....The stories of the babyyyy